Fall has arrived

throwback to fall 2014. We had just left Virginia. We were so hopeful, so excited for a new life in California, surrounded by family and friends and support and WARM WEATHER....so utterly relieved to be home. Cali was always 'home' to my children, even though they're weren't born here. I knew Amelie was going to need therapies and IEP, and I was ready for it. I had just finally overcome my post-parting hypothyroid issues, was finally losing weight and crushing it at the gym, feeling myself for the first time in 4 years. Fall of 2014 was one of the best times in our lives. I was a happy, jovial mommy, and Amelie was thriving! She and bravery were practically twinsies, affectionate, close....and though we were living away from daddy (waiting for our housing to be approved) we never felt alone again, like all those dark nights in east coast winters. 

My how beautiful it is to have a "hopeful" bountiful new season.

and though my darling girl is not here in earth with me, I can't hear or home or smell or kiss her, her laugh only a distant memory, one I cling to with videos, and though her brother lies alone at night now, our lives our bountiful nonetheless. 

hello Fall 🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁 

Here's my darling girl, just chilling on a bench, being adorable. 


i mean, that smirk!