I get asked about 3-4 times a week, what are you guys up to? What’s next for you guys? What is the plan for after retirement? I never really had an answer. What am I supposed to say, “well I’m debating on whether to have another child, but I’m 39 years old, super tired, traumatized, but I don’t want my son to be an only child his whole life, not sure where we’re gonna live, and I have no idea what to do with life” etc etc … as I am picking my son up from school or in the Trader Joe’s parking lot? Ummm No. There’s a difference between being authentic, and opening up your heart in inappropriate places all the time every day like a crazy person.
So I never really had an answer.
my new answer: “I’m learning what to do with grief. AND TRANSFORM IT. Everything else, I have no idea.”
So in case you’re wondering, thats what I’m doin. And I have no idea what it looks like big picture.